That Wordless Rest

Dear Father,

First of all, I want to thank you for all you’ve done in my life.

Father, I know that nothing is too hard for you. You are the only One I can really depend upon. And so here I am again, at your footstool, and asking You to change my life. I ask specifically for a new job. I’ll be submitting my resignation letter this week to my boss, and hopefully, she wouldn’t take it against me. I know I have found favor in her eyes, and the only reason behind it is You.

I know who you are. You are great, and nothing is too hard for You to do. And so I am asking You this now, a job where I can explore and discover more of what I can do, and is a pool of pure breed professionals. Give me this job Father, in the Name of Jesus my Savior. I come to You in full humility, I believe I don’t have to beg my Father for I am your daughter through Jesus’ holy blood. But I come with all hopelessness, knowing that You are the Only one I can trust my future with.

Last Wednesday, I woke up weary and worried. I know You love me this much that You want me to discover great and wonderful things which I still don’t know. I learned that in SGS. But I want a full life. And so, tonight, this is what I ask of You. I am being pressed down, but weeping may last for the night… the joy comes in the morning.

Take over Father. Those who hope in You will not be disappointed.

That same day, I was so tired and drained. My spirit wants to pray and enter into intercession but my body is weak. Then I understand the meaning of silence. Through that wordless rest, all I was able to do was stare at the ceiling, believing in my heart that there are those rare occasions when one does not need words to convey to the Sovereign God what it is going through ones heart. I was afraid that moment, and I trust in You.

You know me more than I can imagine. You definitely love me more than I will ever appreciate and love my self. So Father, save me from this. Nothing is ever hidden in Your sight. No whisper ever goes unheard by Your ears. No sigh has ever passed you senses. Like what I heard You told me when I was about to resign from Info, You’ll never leave me. And I hold onto that.

I have faith that You will give me what I ask this very night. I thank You in advance. Let me stay close to You.

Desperate for Your grace and mercy.