I Fall Down

Father,

I fall down to your feet Father. I worship You with all that is left with my bleeding existence… I lay down every hurtful piece of me onto your Holy Throne. With no one else, I come to You. Truly, You are all I have. Difficult situations rise in my life just to prove that there is No one else like You.

Hold me now, I need Your loving arms today. I am alone in my room, and I worship You. I have nothing else to say right now. All I know is that I love You Father, and that no amount of sadness can take away the joy and love You have given me in spite of being a nobody. I am fully aware of the space I occupy in the universe You have created with Your words, and so I am in awe of the kind of love You gave away for such an insignificant sinner.

Will You take this feeling away? Or grant me my desire? But still, I will surrender all. You taught me how to deny thyself of this world’s pleasures, so I cry with my Spirit asking You to “let your will be done”. In that way, I am assured that years from now, no voice will hunt me down convicting me of my decision. I am human. Whatever ounce of flesh in me I give to You. You have allowed me to go through this river because You want to teach me to swim in Your presence. I’ll wait for You, take me to Your presence. With a strong heart coming from Your mercy, I will take heart and wait on You. In times, I forget that I am also a servant. That You are my Master, so do whatever You wish. You paid a price for this life, I am Yours. Live with me. Walk with me Father. I don’t have the strength to make it on my own. You are my hope.

If thy heart willist mine to bleed, then do as it pleases You. I trust in Your unfathomable judgment. I am a believer of Your Sovereign Knowledge. With a frail body, strengthen me. You know I only get my hope from You. My very refuge and salvation. Most of all my Loving Father. I’ll come home to You today. Let me dwell in Your heart this moment and so rest in Your shadow.

In full surrender,