Someday Soon

I believe that someday soon…
The images and shadows will come…
Your word will become flesh.
I don’t mind waiting.
He will come.


Until the day he steps into my life…
I will keep on seeing the vision
The memories of forever before time
The love that will be mine
From your very heart, through his soul,
Someday, the one will embrace me soon.


His heart will beat to the rhythm of your heart.
I will hear it say, “I love you in his love.”
The day and hour unknown,
But after every storm, I know I’ll soon be home.


We’ll share your revelation
We’ll dance and walk along the shore
We’ll smile together in your embrace
Recite your faithful promises
Someday soon.


Your love
Holy and pure
Will manifest in his eyes
With the strength and courage found in his arms
Your love through his life
He will come. Holy and pure
Your love through his life
Someday soon.

Loving You is Rest

Loving you is like breathing fresh air in the middle of the green fields
while the light shines silently as my day begins,
it's new every morning.

Loving you is walking on solid ground, strong, steadfast and unchangeable.
Loving you is easy and light and not burdensome.
Loving you is like a gift, unexpected but freely given.
Loving you is courage, teaching me to jump off a cliff and dare to feel alive and live.
Loving you is finding comfort amidst this confounding universe, there is stillness in the sound of your voice.
Loving you is discovering the deepest depths of the ocean, unraveling the beauty in the mystery of your soul.

Loving you is seeing my Maker through your eyes, loving me through your heart.
Loving you is finally coming home, finding everlasting rest in the arms of my beloved,
dwelling safely in the shelter of my one and only Lover,
Loving the peace, that surpasses all reasons, I can only find in your embrace...

Indeed, loving you is finding rest.
Loving you is rest.

Will You Give Me A Heart?

A heart to love
The heart to accept the unexpected
The heart to believe in things unseen
The heart to see beyond what is
The heart to hear your heart
The heart to overcome
The heart to embrace joy and not be afraid to be happy
Give me the heart to cherish every moment, one day at a time
Give me the heart to forgive, not just others, but as well as my self
Give me the heart to surrender and and not be scared
I pray for a heart that will always choose your ways over mine
A heart ready to forget failures, but instead...
A heart that is hopeful
Give me a heart to love you above all
And a heart that would let me be loved by You.

For Memories' Sake

Going through the pages of my daily journal is a mixture of encouragements, surprised eyebrows and realizations that such moments actually transpired in those years.  This may sound a bit sad, but we sometimes forget.  The people close to our hearts, those faces we never thought will ever fade from our memories, will in fact vanish… somehow we lose them…. Some would go to better places, cities where they can find themselves, some through painful fights, some would just simply slip away. 

 After some not so beautiful memories, I prayed to the Lord of the Heaven’s Army to grant me splendid farewells.  I mean, if it’s time, then allow me to have a graceful goodbye.  And because nothing is constant, people come and go, I tried to love when I want to.  God has now given me the courage to show I care when I want to.  I don’t expect anything back.  I love because I know I am loved.  This is something I can give, because my source is the ever-loving Father in Heaven.  Not getting what I thought I deserve from them don’t stop me from loving them.  I avoided saying goodbye and putting an end to everything when it’s not yet time.  I let God decide when to.  And I love it when he does give me great people with whom I can share candid moments and most especially when He teaches me to love in spite of and even if.   This is living.  And I am grateful to God for showing me how. 

Now, saying goodbye is not that difficult anymore.  Because I know in my heart, I gave them mine.  No more “what ifs” or “what could’ve been”.  I love when my heart tells me to.  We can never tell the length of time God gave us to spend with that person, so as for me, I will love them truthfully, with all that I can give. 

Unknown

I love you without knowing how, when or where it came from.
I love you without questions, without doubts, and without answers.
I love you for every sparkle I see in your amazing eyes.
I love you for making me embrace hurt as well as pain.
I love you for making me risk so much… just to feel your shadow.
I love you for every time I walk alone, you make me smile.
I love you for making me trust you and love the world around me again.
I love you for everything you are, and everything that you are not.
I love you for teaching me to love so much greater than I could have imagined.
I love you for making me quietly love you, and love myself even more, because now,
I know how to love.

Discipleship Prayer

John 17
The Message (MSG)


Jesus' Prayer for His Followers
1-5 Jesus said these things. Then, raising his eyes in prayer, he said:
Father, it's time.
Display the bright splendor of your Son
So the Son in turn may show your bright splendor.
You put him in charge of everything human
So he might give real and eternal life to all in his charge.
And this is the real and eternal life:
That they know you,
The one and only true God,
And Jesus Christ, whom you sent.
I glorified you on earth
By completing down to the last detail
What you assigned me to do.
And now, Father, glorify me with your very own splendor,
The very splendor I had in your presence
Before there was a world.
6-12I spelled out your character in detail
To the men and women you gave me.
They were yours in the first place;
Then you gave them to me,
And they have now done what you said.
They know now, beyond the shadow of a doubt,
That everything you gave me is firsthand from you,
For the message you gave me, I gave them;
And they took it, and were convinced
That I came from you.
They believed that you sent me.
I pray for them.
I'm not praying for the God-rejecting world
But for those you gave me,
For they are yours by right.
Everything mine is yours, and yours mine,
And my life is on display in them.
For I'm no longer going to be visible in the world;
They'll continue in the world
While I return to you.
Holy Father, guard them as they pursue this life
That you conferred as a gift through me,
So they can be one heart and mind
As we are one heart and mind.
As long as I was with them, I guarded them
In the pursuit of the life you gave through me;
I even posted a night watch.
And not one of them got away,
Except for the rebel bent on destruction
(the exception that proved the rule of Scripture).

13-19Now I'm returning to you.
I'm saying these things in the world's hearing
So my people can experience
My joy completed in them.
I gave them your word;
The godless world hated them because of it,
Because they didn't join the world's ways,
Just as I didn't join the world's ways.
I'm not asking that you take them out of the world
But that you guard them from the Evil One.
They are no more defined by the world
Than I am defined by the world.
Make them holy—consecrated—with the truth;
Your word is consecrating truth.
In the same way that you gave me a mission in the world,
I give them a mission in the world.
I'm consecrating myself for their sakes
So they'll be truth-consecrated in their mission.

20-23I'm praying not only for them
But also for those who will believe in me
Because of them and their witness about me.
The goal is for all of them to become one heart and mind—
Just as you, Father, are in me and I in you,
So they might be one heart and mind with us.
Then the world might believe that you, in fact, sent me.
The same glory you gave me, I gave them,
So they'll be as unified and together as we are—
I in them and you in me.
Then they'll be mature in this oneness,
And give the godless world evidence
That you've sent me and loved them
In the same way you've loved me.

24-26Father, I want those you gave me
To be with me, right where I am,
So they can see my glory, the splendor you gave me,
Having loved me
Long before there ever was a world.
Righteous Father, the world has never known you,
But I have known you, and these disciples know
That you sent me on this mission.
I have made your very being known to them—
Who you are and what you do—
And continue to make it known,
So that your love for me
Might be in them
Exactly as I am in them.

Of Wonderment

There were thousands of words in my head,
ways on how to say it…
Together with the surging emotions behind it.
As years passed, the thousands turned to hundreds,
less emotions, fewer aching statements,
tears seldom glide through my face… and longer smiles.
But now, I find no need to utter a word.
Just a smile, a grin,
A lifting of that drained account of what I thought I wanted to say.
One may not forget the face,
The feeling may brush itself with the morning breeze of memory,
But words now are unavailing.
Sweet freedom of thought, of wonderment, a blessed beginning,
Truly the Spirit is liberating.

NightShift

I dream of life as simple as the clouds traveling through air.
I dream of you flying with me up there.
I dream of a life less complicated than this,
where there’s no form of wealth which breeds death
that separates one world from the other.
I close my eyes and dream of love which knows no death.
It will stay beautiful with every countenance of its goodness.
I dream of life that is alive.
Yet, sometimes…
I wish of a life of silence.
Where all I can hear is the dancing of leaves when autumn rains…
And the movement of wind which slithers through my face.
I wish that there is no gravity to pull me back to earth,
So I can ascend and dance to the faraway heavens.
I dream I can always be up in the sky when the sun decides to set in.
And calmly lie on the violet and orange mist that surrounds me.
How I wish it will be my hiding place, whenever I need to find my strength again.
Where I can reclaim my sanity and know the reason why I would want to endure breathing.
I see my life living beyond time in paradise.
I see the golden streets and the silver trees.
I see the Origin of Existence unravel in front of me.
I see my spirit finally fulfilling the dream I had before forever.
I know someday it will begin at the end of it all.

MoonRiver Song

In the stillness of your shadow is the mystery on your face.
It’s rare to find such complementing soul with the deepest trench of convictions.
Tried to walk with your hands and rediscover the pages of this world.
Attempted to see through the windows of your soul.
Dared to see life differently and dance with what you called liberty.
Secretly this soul hoped that your spirit will capture the faith flowing through my veins.
And feel the love threading through my blood and pass it to your heart.
Beseech the heavens that your heart beats the same as mine….
But maybe not today, not this time.
I won’t relinquish this prayer from my sleep.
I believe that someday, perhaps not in our lifetime, but in His time…
You will be free, free indeed.

NightShift

December 2006

I dream of life as simple as the clouds traveling through air.

I dream of you flying with me up there.

I dream of a life less complicated than this,

where there’s no form of wealth which breeds death,

that separates one world from the other.

I close my eyes and dream of love which knows no death.

It will stay beautiful with every countenance of its goodness.

I dream of life that is alive.

Yet, sometimes…

I wish of a life of silence.

Where all I can hear is the dancing of leaves when autumn rains.

And the movement of wind which slithers through my face.

I wish that there is no gravity to pull me back to earth,

So I can ascend and dance to the faraway heavens.

I dream I can always be up in the sky when the sun decides to set in.

And calmly lie on the violet and orange mist that surrounds me.

How I wish it will be my hiding place, whenever I need to find my strength again.

Where I can reclaim my sanity and know the reason why I would want to endure breathing.

I see my life living beyond time in paradise.

I see the golden streets and the silver trees.

I see the origin of existence unravel in front of me.

I see my spirit finally fulfilling the dream I had before forever.

I know someday it will begin at the end of it all.