Going through the pages of my daily journal is a mixture of encouragements, surprised eyebrows and realizations that such moments actually transpired in those years. This may sound a bit sad, but we sometimes forget. The people close to our hearts, those faces we never thought will ever fade from our memories, will in fact vanish… somehow we lose them…. Some would go to better places, cities where they can find themselves, some through painful fights, some would just simply slip away.
After some not so beautiful memories, I prayed to the Lord of the Heaven’s Army to grant me splendid farewells. I mean, if it’s time, then allow me to have a graceful goodbye. And because nothing is constant, people come and go, I tried to love when I want to. God has now given me the courage to show I care when I want to. I don’t expect anything back. I love because I know I am loved. This is something I can give, because my source is the ever-loving Father in Heaven. Not getting what I thought I deserve from them don’t stop me from loving them. I avoided saying goodbye and putting an end to everything when it’s not yet time. I let God decide when to. And I love it when he does give me great people with whom I can share candid moments and most especially when He teaches me to love in spite of and even if. This is living. And I am grateful to God for showing me how.
Now, saying goodbye is not that difficult anymore. Because I know in my heart, I gave them mine. No more “what ifs” or “what could’ve been”. I love when my heart tells me to. We can never tell the length of time God gave us to spend with that person, so as for me, I will love them truthfully, with all that I can give.
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