Unworthy, sensitive, lazy

Father God,

I just want to be at blank and not feel nor think of anything. I ask for the forgiveness of my sins and relying on my ability to handle situations. I was proud but you taught me humility, mercy and grace painfully. You were silent for quite a while and I thought about letting go and having my way... but I just couldn't. I thank you for the remembrance, the reminder of what you have done for me which is too hard to ignore. I could not completely turn my back on what I believe you want me to do. I couldn't lay down complains and alibis. You would remind me the martyrs, prophets and servants of God who have given their lives and possessions, paying the cost of following you.

What is above all is the vision of Jesus on the Cross who died for me, giving me eternal life making a way for me to be with you in heaven. How can a saved soul ever turn back to this kind of loving and unconditional sacrifice? Unworthy, sensitive, lazy, but Father God in the name of Jesus Christ, My God and Savior I honor you and once again coming to you with awe and reverence. I ask that you just continue to hold me close to you, let me hear the beat of your heart as you use me. Sanctify me in every possible way. I am yours, take this life. Do whatever you wish. There are billions of people on earth today, I don't know how but use me to whatever divine strategy you have that you want me to do.

I give you the glory.