Just For Today

Father God in Heaven,

Help me find rest in you alone. Help me understand the beauty of waiting on you alone. You told Abraham to wait patiently on you and he received what you have promised him. May I go through today, just for today with strength and new hope. Teach me to hope on greater things. Show me your glory today and may I just stay in your embrace. Teach me to wait.

Love,

My Nothingness

Heavenly Father,

I come to you today, humbly asking for your mercy and grace. Be magnified. I ask for the forgiveness of my sins. I ask that you have mercy over my life. I have nothing. I am nothing. I am not sure of tomorrow. The only thing I am sure of in this world is that you will always love me. And for that, I am assured I will be alright. I have nothing to give you but my nothingness. Take my life. I surrender my heart's desire to you. You are more than enough. I will declare it now, and for the rest of my life... I love you.. not because I should, but because I simply do. I adore you.

Forever grateful.

Not Enough Tears

Father God,

I'm thinking about the things happening and those to come. A season, a reason or lifetime. I don't know. There are not enough tears to convey how my heart painfully cries out. My mind is at a blank. My body is tried... I don't want to move or do anything. But I know I have to. I have to just walk in faith, and fix my eyes on you alone. I love you. This hurt will not change my longing of your presence. You may not hear my voice tonight, but you heart my heart's desire. I just want to do what you want... So, give me a pure heart. If you want me to forget everything, then give me the heart to forget. Bind the wounds and heal me. Embrace me so tight, hold me close to your heart... Let me rest in your embrace.

I don't have the strength to move and think.
Just hide me in your love.
Judge my heart, and
let me find rest in your love tonight.

Love,

Not Because I Should

Heavenly Father,

I just want to say, "whatever I feel is not important."

I love you, not because I should... but because that's the truth.

No amount of happiness nor pain can ever separate me from you.

That's your promise.
Till we meet face to face.

I'll be waiting.

Thank You for My Friends

Heavenly Father,

I come to you and ask for the forgiveness of my sins. Help me understand the world around me. Help me accept situations. I believe you have a purpose. I believe in your omnipotence and omniscience. Let me hear your voice today. Father, I thank you for my friends. I thank you for sending sweet souls to comfort my heart. I thank you for loving me through them, teaching me through them and disciplining through them. I ask that you comfort and embrace them at times I won't be there to listen to their silent tears. Thank you, Father for strengthening them... for people like me who need people like them. Bless their plans and dreams. And teach me to love them the way you want them to be loved and cherished. Again, Father... Thank you for my friends.

I just want to do Your will

Heavenly Father,

 

I honor you in my life. I give you glory for all the things you are doing in my life. I love you. I have no one but you. I ask for the forgiveness of my sins, cleanse me Lord. Cleanse me with the blood of the Lamb of God. Cover my heart, my mind with blood of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Father, I come to your throne in the Name of Jesus and ask you to deliver me from all troubles. Hide me in your loving arms. Keep me safe and protected, by the power of your name. I have no else to call unto, no one else for me but you. You are my hiding place and refuge. My only strength. All that I have is yours. All that I have, you can have. I have nothing but your love. Hold me close and take me into your arms. I just want what you want for me. Strengthen my heart and body. Strengthen the people around me. Strengthen everyone, those who are lowly and in need. Give us the courage to fight battles set before us. I ask for wisdom and understanding. I ask for your deliverance. Thank you, Father. All my hope is in you. Amen.

My Hiding Place

Heavenly Father,

You are my hiding place. Shelter me from the storms of life. Help me and embrace my heart. I pray for those in need. I pray for those struggling right now. Strengthen them and hold their hearts. Help those in pain, and quiet their spirit today, for your mercies are new every morning.

Love,

I Don't Have A Back-Up

Father God,

I give you everything. I am yours. Everything I have, you can have. I don't have a back-up. You're the only One I have.

Roadmap to God's Presence - Benny Hinn

A Deeper Commitment to Prayer - Benny Hinn

"You have got to seek God with everything inside of you, 

because half-hearted prayer will not work." - Benny Hinn

Will You Give Me A Heart?

A heart to love
The heart to accept the unexpected
The heart to believe in things unseen
The heart to see beyond what is
The heart to hear your heart
The heart to overcome
The heart to embrace joy and not be afraid to be happy
Give me the heart to cherish every moment, one day at a time
Give me the heart to forgive, not just others, but as well as my self
Give me the heart to surrender and and not be scared
I pray for a heart that will always choose your ways over mine
A heart ready to forget failures, but instead...
A heart that is hopeful
Give me a heart to love you above all
And a heart that would let me be loved by You.

I Never Thought

Until I met Him,
I never thought
Someone could love me
far beyond the measure of love 
I thought I deserve.

Simply Impossible

It is impossible to know Jesus Christ and not surrender to Him your life. 
It is impossible to have known who Jesus is and not fall in-love with Him.  

Scrapbook

I’m not afraid to grow old alone.  I have faith that You’ll take care of me in my old age if ever.  But what I’m concerned about is what my scrapbook would look like.  I don’t want them to be empty.  I want it to be filled will all kinds of photographs and colorful souvenirs.  Keepsakes which will remind me of the colorful life You cared to write for me.  With all emotions surging in my chest.  I want to have memories.  Whether sad nor quiet, frantic and horrible... everything.  I want to live to the full like what You promised, but still within the scope of you words.  
You know my heart and it makes me love You more.  
I have trust in You. 
Take over my new found friendships.  

Walking Home

Stepping out of the battlefield.  Wounded, no armor left.  Some bruises on the right shoulder, left elbow and legs.  A pierced heart, somehow bleeding.  I’m coming home Father.  It is over.  I remember seeing this certain movie, based on an epic or a myth I suppose.  A young boy was sent out to the wilderness, with only a spear on hand.  He was able to plunge the weapon into the flesh of this huge dark wild beast, planning to devour his body.  He stayed alive.  And went home carrying more strength, with all unseen weapon in his heart and mind. 

Like the Israelites  who were exiled to Babylon in the time of the great prophet Jeremiah.  I ask for the forgiveness of my sins Father.  Take me home, I was exiled.  But because of Your deliverance I’m coming home.

This time, let me begin with You.

When Someone Mortal Comes Along

The music, the movie and the characters were remarkably spectacular simply because they cause people to change.   The message of the movie undoubtedly springs hope to those who seek their soul’s safest haven.  When the ultimate definition of love was displayed through the scenes, the words written in Your book were magnified to the extent of touching my obdurate interior.  It served its purpose, and I applaud you for the magnificent movie.  It actually convinced my eyes to look at love differently...to a  

Love that is not afraid to give and has sufficient valor to accept less return from what was voluntarily offered.  You mentioned in your book that “love always protects”, those words make me smile.  Love has the audacity to defend and shield the beloved.  Father, like what Peter told you when you asked him to feed your lambs, “You know all things.”  There are episodes and secret statements hidden in a person’s humanity which are veiled and buried.  I would love to translate those delicate sentiments but I ran out of words.  That is why I depend on your Sovereignty that even though my tears were unnamed, your being God would decipher every drop and every sob.  

Brown Bench at the Bus Stop

At this point, that is the only sure thing in my heart.  I love you.  It may not always begin with that, but the end is always me being captured by your pure love.  And when I begin to contemplate on your mercy for my life, all of the heartache caused by this nonsense grievance of waiting diminishes.  The smoke which blinded my eyes fades away and left me with your wonderful vision.  That you send your beloved and only Son to offer his body and blood, and used it’s holiness to purify my soul.

Like Jumping to My Death

I know I’ve accepted weakness as part of my failures. I just wanted a peaceful life, but in my heart I know that if I stop that would be the end of me. I know that if I turn my life around from Your ministry, it’s like facing a cliff and jumping to my death. I will be living a worthless and lifeless life. I want to thank You for not letting me go to that direction. Help me see situations through Your eyes. Father, I never intend to live apart from you. You are my life and salvation. 

As They Hear My Cry

I will sing to you tonight from my soul.  The wind may not hear my voice, but I pray that your heart will hear my worship.  My tears are never hidden from your sight and as I bow down before your throne, as the elders with the angels in heaven hear my cry… Let me love you tonight.

D. R. E. A. M. S.

Since I met him, I forgot my dreams. I am now building dreams with him. I dream and include him in those hopeful dreams… dreams for him and for us, for us in this journey together for the purpose of forever. We are now building dreams together. I wake up each day knowing he is at my side, saying “Good morning, Lord.” At times I can’t sleep. The hours in a day seem insufficient for us. He gave me the courage not to believe in me, but believe in his love for me which will never run out. His love for me is ever strong. How can I possibly want to be with someone else? I fell-in love. And now, I have found someone who deeply and passionately loves me. Genuine, pure and holy. He is in-love with me. Isn’t that amazing? He is the love of my life. He keeps on making my heart awake. I’ve never felt so protected, so home and so loved until I met him. He knows how to make me smile. He knows how to love me. He accepts me and loves me, always ready to embrace me even when I find no reasons to. He would tell me to love others in selfless ways, encouraging me to serve and humbly give what I can. He assures me that he will be there waiting for me when I come home weary and tired from all the demands of this world. He’ll nurture me again with his comforting words, gently renewing my heart. His embrace is refreshingly warm. Unlike the heart beating inside me, his is powerful but lowly. He is always full of warmth and passion for this restless me. I can come home to him any moment of the day, and he is always watching my every move and each little step, with his eyes fix at my countenance. He lets me hide in his arms until I’m ready to face the world outside of us again. He even listens to my nonsense. He laughs with me over my silliness, and I can feel his heart hurt when I am hurt.

I don’t know what it is, but he sees something beautiful in me. He knows how to bring out my purpose. He looks at me with burning passion and doesn’t want to ever let me go. I have no idea what it is. Grace. I am glad that I surrendered to his love. I am grateful that he pursued me all those years of running away and hiding from him. He’s always been there for me, without questions and without doubts. He loves me and the people I love. He wants me to enjoy life, now… only with him by my side. He is always patient with me. He never lets go. And it’s comforting to know that he will never leave me. Nothing can separate me from his powerful love. That is what he promised me and I believe him. He always believes that his love is enough for us. He is right. It is and will always be more than enough.


2010-02-22 Our Dreams Together